Pretty soon this blog site will be defunct.
There will no longer be only boys ruling this roost leaving me the lone female.
Sort of sad, right?
I know, I sometimes feel that emotion, too.
I have been reading some great books, not the least of which is Mary Beth Chapman's
Choosing to SEE
which I highly reccommend.
In it, she talks some about this sadness side-by-side with the joy of adding to your family.
For myriad reasons we are about ready to pursue adoption plans and are watching, compiling, researching, waiting and praying fervently about all these things.
And we are not QUITE ready to divulge all that we are preparing...yet.
For the time being you can still find me on this blog site, like always.
Soon though, This Writer will be blogging over at
Here's the explanation of the title:
My aunt, Amy Bergen Hamovitz, a homeschooling, Jesus-loving, adoptive and biological Mama who went home to be with Jesus in February 2009 after an excruciating battle with thyroid cancer said to me in hushed tones in August, 2008
"You know Esty, I have always felt like a little person with a little life...
it would make more sense to me to be here and watch my children grow, walk my girls through teenaged years and see my boys become men - to me it makes more sense.
But God has used my illness in such a big, big way...
and if this is how God chooses to use me in a big way: so be it."
She had no idea how these words would affect me.
She died 6 months later.
I, too am a little person.
I, too live a fairly little life.
But God has a Big Plan.
I am starting to see it.
more to follow*............
Esty and my Aunt Amy
family reunion, Tucson, Arizona, August 2008