Saturday, March 13, 2010

March Makes Moving Much More iMminent

First, here are some of what March has held for us...
...shirtless hero stances...

...random goofiness...


...sibling harmony...



...family time focus...

...did I mention goofiness?...


...sweetness...


...SUPER good times with dearest friends...


...more goofiness - THAT was a fun night...


...aaaaand a trip to the Beach for the Hub and I to seek out the Grand Plan for our Future
(without boys, thank you Sissy for keeping them!)

which was completely bitterweet.
(see above pics with dearest friends to understand why.)

me and the Hub on our weekend getaway trip


Things I am finding as we plan our move to the Beach in less than 3 months:
1.) The Lord is in no hurry to show His cards on this one. We have no house waiting, no offer on our home here, therefore no movers locked in, no clue which schools are right for us down there yet, no actual hard and fast move date yet.
2.) I really really really don't like that.
3.) This isn't just a move, this is a Lesson for Me. God wants me to grow up in my faith. I am too dependant on a "breadcrumb trail" for security in my faith - too dependant on flags along the way to determine my level of calm in decision-making. This time, the Lord is showing me He isn't giving me a head's-up.
4.) So, I am learning to trust in a new way.
5.) My younger brother sent a very encouraging card (the first EVER?!?) which was kind and loving and I won't embarrass him by reciting it but enclosed there was a neat magnet which had a great Ralph Waldo Emerson quote:
"Do not go where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."
6.) Sounds to my ears alot like Hebrews 11-13 which is where I have been:
"God has said:
'I will never leave you;
I will never forget you.'
So we can be sure when we say:
'I will not be afraid, because the Lord is my helper.'"
Are we sad to leave our sweet mountain and dear friends? Is it uncomfortable to stand before a blank canvas when God is silent except for His whispers and shouts that He is working on our behalf? Is it difficult to choose an uncertain avenue when the place we've been is solid?
Yep.
That's why they call it faith.
If it was easy they'd call it seeing.
"Lord it is my chief complaint that my faith is weak and faint."
-William Cowper





6 comments:

  1. Aw, Esty. I'm going to miss you so much! Already do - haven't seen you in forever it feels like! Praying for you guys!

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  2. Is it alright if I pray that God's ways lead you back here someday? : ) I find myself praying a lot of really selfish prayers lately. I am praying for you!

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  3. Even though I'll miss you, I'm so glad that we'll have this blog to keep up with your adventures!
    Can't wait to see your story (continue to) unfold...

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  4. Mighty Mountains {of} March Madness! We were also in limbo for over a year while Chris was trying to find a job and I completely understand how you feel. Not knowing... not having a plan... is tough. We sure learned a lot, though, and our faith grew by leaps and bounds. It sounds like you have the right attitude. Hang in there, trust in the Lord, and all will turn out as it should. Love you!

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  5. P.S. What adorable pictures of you two! You look fantastic!!!

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  6. What you wrote resonates with me on MANY levels. It feels like progress is on pause, but life is still going and time is ticking away. It is quite a discipline to calm an anxious heart with prayer. Love you girl and I look forward to reading how our Father unpacks this part of your journey.

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